Outside, minding my own business.
Neighbor, two stories up, out on the balcony smoking a cigarette.
I light my sage smudge stick and begin smudging my husband,
A warrior, grieving for his people.
Emotional exhaustion kicks in and I prepare to be smudged.
Another warrior, grieving for her people.
And then the neighbor speaks...
"The smudge is bothering my cat."
A continued narrative plays over and over again like a record
It's on repeat and unbroken.
Rage, unsettles my skin.
Do I make evident the irony of her claim?
Do I say something?
Will she call the police if I say something?
Angry white people have rights to their emotions.
My emotions come with a price.
Rage boils the sweetness of my Indigenous blood into oblivion.
I sit. I sit. I say fuck a lot and I sit.
I ask the great Quetzalcoatl to temper this festering.
Lava hot rage, molten in my soul.
I sit, I sit. I say fuck some more, and I sit.
I get so mad I laugh, and I laugh, and I laugh.
I laugh at my neighbor choking on her cigarette habit.
The irony kicks in.
Maybe I'll use tobacco instead of sage next time.
Nah, probably not.
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