For when you need joy...

Hey You, 

How are you? I thought I'd check in. I've missed you.

I've had some sunshine recently. It's helped...so much! 

It's helped clear a bit of the fog. 

I've been reflecting on something. Lately I have found myself a lot more salty than usual. Not angry per se, but definitely angsty. 

There's so many things one could be angry about these days. It's hard to not feel helpless to change anything. So, I've decided to smile more and talk with people. It's been fulfilling and requires a lot of not caring what people think. Cause I dont just talk, I joke around. I'm me. Dark humor and chaos all wrapped up in a smile.

Sometimes it's me helping someone. Sometimes it's offering a dance with someone I awkwardly try to pass in the store and almost run into. Sometimes it's chatting with someone I wouldn't normally talk too. I love those moments. It brings me joy and I hope it brings joy to others. Cause honestly people need it. As much as people I rise against this broken machine, I want to lift others in the process.

See here's my funny moment I had...

Those moments when your 7 year old decides to do an exaggerated crazy cat walk across the cross walk for a host of waiting cars. Then turns to you after crossing (light is still red mind you) and demands you dance. Cars are still waiting and you're pretty sure you have an audience. You dance with your back to them. But it's not enough. Miss thang argues that she did all that crazy model walk for them...alone. And now you recall Brene Browns story on shame and dancing, so you turn and dance for bored 6 o'clock traffic. And not just any dance, you floss, a dance befitting of your seven year old. 

The things I do to nurture courage.

Not a boring moment with my mini agent of chaos.

I hope you feel the warmth of joy today.

All my love,

Amber